today was not as productive as i hoped it would be.
so i turned the tv on and started changing channels. i never really thought of settling since all the movies were already halfway to fin. channel 21 has always been my best bet. another hbo film is about to start in 00:08 seconds. so i waited 'til spidey came up. i hesitated. i didn't like the sequel. but this one showed the last spiderman movie where he fought the venom and the sandman. so i put down the remote and took to bed 2 fluffy pillows to hold my feet up against the cold air.
i enjoyed every minute of it. i was like watching it for the first time, when, in fact, i have seen the film more than thrice.
it was all about forgiveness with a few twists, and about being consumed by our inner narcissus. peter parker was too busy enjoying the kleig lights he forgot about the things that matter most. in the end, he learned how to forgive his uncle's killer and harry (the goblin's son).
i was touched by the way harry realized the deep hole he dug purposely to bury his friendship with peter, and how he managed to regain his sanity and think clearly despite the devil's advocate he found in his father's person, who was primarily reduced to a mere reflection after his tragic death in the sequel. harry's muddled judgment was his father's, not his. it was his father who took to his grave all the anger he had against those who mocked him during his lifetime.
for harry, it was a struggle, but was worth all peter's wait.
i wish i had that sense of resolution so i could fight inertia and get on with my life without a trace of regret. it's been awhile since i've held my head up and walked without looking back. maybe i'm just being extra careful, maybe not.
i wish i can forgive, i mean really forgive the orange's spawn who hurt me and cris not too long ago.
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